| where the F did summer go?? |
[17 Aug 2006|01:43am] |
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it's been a while...
-i just smoked the last cigarette. you dont know how sad that makes me
-sometimes it's so hard to let people go.
i let him go once, did what i thought was best for me, and he reeled me back in
i keep hoping things will change
brushing off the bad and focusing on the good
sometimes i find myself wanting to scream "youre such a little boy!"
but i dont. i cant be mean, say hurtful things...
so yesterday sucked. horribly.
i throw up and automatically i have an eating disorder??
if that wasnt upsetting enough i get to deal with the fact that he just left and we havent spoken since.
whatever, man....
i'm going to be busy with work and school, i dont have time for this crap
sigh* i'd so love to make time for something amazing, though
ahhhhh! it's so depressing when i think about how in love i was today a year ago
i was never second
now i'd feel lucky to make second
-i hate waiting for a phone call that you know youre not going to get
-school. monday. 8 am. piss.
i make believe that dreams are real
i sleep so i dont have to feel
yesterday i took a 4 1/2 hour nap
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| keep me runnin' back to you |
[19 Jul 2006|11:19am] |
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i really don't want to be at this apartment. at all.
i'm not sure who's gonna make me scream first, captain obvious or my dog.
i miss a boy's contagious smile.
i'm spending all my money and making none.
went to grayson lake the other day for the first time. it was bitchin. i love my max and sperma's boys =)
my tummy hurts =(
i really, really need to work tonight and tomorrow. yea, i have to come up with $700 by the 31st. fun stuff.
"i can't think about that right now. if i do i'll go crazy. i'll think about that tomorrow."
i wish i could turn gracie into a cat. a very chill cat.
*how come you don't make time for me anymore
that's the last thing she said to you
and now when you call she don't answer anymore
or the line is busy and you can't get through
in the time it would take you to learn from your mistakes
in the time it would take to dial the phone
in the time it will take you to realize her greatness she'll be gone, she's moved on
to someone who takes the time*
my dog's eating ants out of the window. =P
peace.
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| sometimes i give myself the creeps. sometimes my mind plays tricks on me |
[17 Jun 2006|01:23pm] |
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i bought a new journal last spring and i wrote in it all summer then couldnt find when i moved to the apt. i was rather sad, btw. i found it a couple minutes ago. really odd to read it, but i'm so glad i got to.
i talked about how scared i was to have a b/f and how scared i was of break ups. that's exactly what i'm feeling now, but i'm so glad i wasnt too scared to date tyler. we had so much fun and i loved him so. sooo...maybe i shouldnt worry that i'm scared now. it's just normal for me?
maybe something awesome will come of this, maybe not. i dunno.
i just want something new to sweep me away. make me not think about last summer's amazingness constantly.
oh, and if i don't get to go to the beach i'm going to be really sad. =(
girls suck. period. the end.
he's coming home todayyyyy =D
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| i want a boy to make this my ringtone =) |
[14 Jun 2006|11:08pm] |
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She makes the hairs on the back of my neck stand up
Just one touch
And I errupt like a volcano and cover her with my love
Babygirl, you make me say Ohh ohhh ohhhh
And I just can't think of anything else I'd rather do
Than to hear you sing, sing my name the way you do
When we do our thing, when we do the things we do
Babygirl, you make me say Ohh ohhh ohhhh
Sexy love, girl, the things you do
Keep me sprung, keep running back to you
Oh, I love making love to you
Babygirl, you know you're my sexy love
Oh, baby, what we do it makes the sun come up
Keep on lovin' 'til it goes back down
And I don't know what I'd do if I would lose your touch
That's why I'm always keepin' you around... my sexy love
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| best song about sex everrr =) |
[08 Jun 2006|12:00pm] |
Here I lay
Still and breathless
Just like always
Still I want some more
Mirrors sideways
Who cares what's behind
Just like always
Still your passenger
Chrome buttons, buckles and leather surfaces
These and other lucky witnesses
Now to calm me
This time won't you please
Drive faster
Roll the windows down
This cool night air is curious
Let the whole world look in
Who cares who sees anything
I'm your passenger
I'm your passenger
Drop these down and
Put them on me
Nice cool seats
There to cushion your knees
Now to calm me
Take me around again
Just don't pull over
This time would you please drive faster
Roll the windows down
This cool night air is curious
Let the whole world look in
Who cares who sees what tonight
Roll these misty windows down
To catch my breath
And then go and go and go just drive me
Home and back again
Here I lay just like always
Don't let me go
Take me to the edge
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[29 May 2006|03:32pm] |
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i'm a sucker for a sweet talker.
-weve got movies on our list to see
things to do just you and me
calls to make from here to there and back
weve got fun to have and days to spend
stars to see or just pretend
at least for now just keep things right on track -
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| so set fire to everything you thought you knew about me... |
[15 May 2006|10:58pm] |
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-so, i have a new job in charleston serving. i'm going to try to come home friday or saturday.
gosh, i'm sooo going to miss everyone at work =( sigh*
but it's time for summer to start. definitely.
-i love this icon
-i hate this weather
-warped tour is a must this summer
-i need to tan. sooo badly. yes
( Read more... )
-i hate periods.
-my knee hurts. boo
-boys are silly and confusing. i'm not sure i care for them too much, nope
-i have amazingly high hopes for this summer! =) i hope it's longgg and lovely. <3
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| i'm not your star... |
[03 May 2006|11:37pm] |
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-ughhh. he's so cute. why does he have a girlfriend?? =P
-something corporate makes me feel amazing.
-all i do is work. my feet ache..
"men can do terrible things. yes they can."
-ohhh, i can't wait for summer. it's going to be here soon in all it's glory. <3
-school...bills...work...distance...it ruined us. we didnt need those things. we were perfect. i want to be as happy as i was then now. that would be amazing... </3
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[27 Apr 2006|11:36pm] |
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girlfriends suck
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| about time for bed...the eyes are burning. |
[10 Apr 2006|12:06am] |
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i love my roomie <3 i'd be so lonely without her.
being a server is lovely.
forgetting to pay april's rent is not. =/
i'm an idiot.
i want something new and pretty. butterflies in my tummy.
he needs cute hair and honest eyes =)
he needs to be funny...oh, and like rap and rock. a lil three 6 mafia and a lil senses fail. fabulous.
sigh* where is this boy??
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[24 Mar 2006|12:21pm] |
Everyday I wake up late.
Since I quit my day job I have been sane.
But responsibilities sure do remain, but I'll just let them wait.
Because I don't know what I am doing now,
and I wont try to act like it cas I sure don't know how.
And I'll admit that I don't know, just where I'm going on this long and winding road
that's taking me to what will be my home.
So stare and see that this is me,
and I will be just what I need to believe
that something is what I'm gonna be.
And what you do is what you do and what I do needs to be true.
The things I do maybe need to be thought through,
but just remember what's right for me, might be not right for you.
Staring at this mirror and I'm wondering who you are.
Right now is a time for searching and I just wish I had a car
to drive a long distance and just think about the war,
and now life's got so much more.
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[19 Mar 2006|12:59pm] |
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i have today off, ohhh yeeaaa. it's a lovely thing. i'm going to spend it being semi lazy. i've cleaned a bunch, but i don't really plan on going anywhere or getting pretty.
i'm training for server next week or the week after, not sure, but yea, everyone has to come in and let me wait on them =) sorry if i suck, which i probably will for a while =/
but i'll hook you up =D
i can't wait til spring!! it's going to be fabulous.
and i'm def excited about summer, of course.
school, work, money, apartments...blahh. so unsure about all that crap.
no more fried food, fast food, pop, excessive amounts of candy and only low fat/carb icecream. i just bought a new bathing suit (very cute, btw) and i don't want to look disgusting in it.
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| when did they bring back the headbanger's ball?? =) |
[11 Mar 2006|11:33pm] |
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-i really miss some charleston boys...and girls. sigh*
-almost stabbed a bitch at work. sooo close.
rude, rude, rude people
-pathetic ppl kinda make me sick
-tuesday it's gonna be in the 30s. hahaha, what?? not acceptable.
-i want a cute little hardcore boy that dances. =) awww
maybe some shaggy hair..maybe dyed.
tattoos.
ahhh...lovely.
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| NY |
[06 Mar 2006|01:43pm] |
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returned from NYC yesterday. it was a lovely trip for the most part, but i'm glad to be home. i missed people *sniffle* =)
some highlights-
-trip to andrew's house (mmm cheesecake)
-Snore haha
-empire state bldg pics =)
-the cornbread at Sylvia's <3
-SEPHORA. lovely, beautiful sephora. i'm gonna miss you.
blahh-
-thursday's weather. 13 degree wind chill and a wind of 30 mph. =P
-lack of good sleep
-rushing to get ready b/c nobody knows what the heck theyre doin heh
-almost missing the train home from andrew's hehe
-not having more money to spend
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ok, i want a b/f ...i think. maybe not a serious b/f, but just a boy to hang out with, talk to on the phone, that whole deal. blahh, it'll come when it comes, i guess.
i don't know what i'm going to do about school and my apt. situation.
i want to transfer to State, but i want to live with Miranda here. I suppose I could always commute.
at least then i'll have to make myself get my license heh.
i need to figure this stuff out.
oh yea, and i want a yorkie =) *sigh*
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| bday |
[28 Feb 2006|07:04pm] |
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saturday-
shanna made me dinner and a cake =)
we all sat around for a while then went to BW3s and then over to C&O. pretty uneventful, but fun. =)
funniest part of the night: OMEGA. original max and erma's gangter assoc.
monday (my actual bday)-
work
remedies
took my friend to the ER in a cab =/
crazy arguing when i left, so roger stayed the night with me. i hope everything works out for him.
i def didnt go to work this morning.
oh yea, i love my miranda!! she made my door lovely. =)
interesting bday.
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tomorrow at 6:00 i head for NYC =D
i hope it goes well. actually i hope it's amazing.
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why does he have to be sooo cute?? =)
and he likes good music...*sigh*
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[14 Feb 2006|07:27am] |
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i'm sick of boys
i give up for now...until i find an ideal one.
blahhh
-i hate that he likes someone else. i miss him.
-i miss him too...but i really need to stop thinking about that
spending v-day with the ladies tomorrow evening. seeing the mass amount of couples will most likely be depressing, but i'll survive.
ugh, i'm hungry
and i so don't want to work tomorrow
sleep time
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| oh, it's what you do to me |
[06 Feb 2006|03:01am] |
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i wish i could sleep at night! blahh
instead i'm laying here listening to sad songs and watching muted Sixteen Candles.
*i'm sittin here all by myself just tryin to think of something to do
tryin to think of something, anything to keep me from thinking of you
but you know it's not working out cas youre all that's on my mind
one thought of you is all it takes to leave the rest of the world behind
well, I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
and I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
and I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
and you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did*
i want to watch Pretty In Pink now
and i want spring.
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[27 Jan 2006|01:05am] |
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right now i'm watching Roseanne and waiting for my laundry...
i should be talking to someone cute who thinks i'm cute. i want butterflies in my tummy. i want someone to play with my hair. sleeping alone sucks.
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[24 Jan 2006|01:31pm] |
it's sunny
my hair's pretty
i'm watching a really good episode of matlock
and my roomie's story made the paper
it's a pretty good day =)
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[23 Jan 2006|11:46pm] |
| You Are a Peacemaker Soul | 
You strive to please others and compromise anyway you can.
War or conflict bothers you, and you would do anything to keep the peace.
You are a good mediator and a true negotiator.
Sometimes you do too much, trying so hard to make people happy.
While you keep the peace, you tend to be secretly judgmental.
You lose respect for people who don't like to both give and take.
On the flip side, you've got a graet sense of humor and wit.
You're always dimplomatic and able to give good advice.
Souls you are most compatible with: Warrior Soul, Hunter Soul and Visionary Soul |
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